Failing ?

Hello hello everyone!

It’s been a good week since I have written down our shenanigans and man, lots of drama.

Over the weekend AJ yelled at me…like purposely looked at me and yelled.

He put his fork down, turned in his seat, looked at me, and high pitched yelled for at least two long seconds. He has never ever done this or had any type of screaming at loved ones.

He has always fussed during an undesirable activity but never expressed anger through yelling.

Six is proving to be a challenge so far.

Every kid is going to find their force, so for AJ I guess that meant testing the waters and yelling at mom.

We quickly put a stop to it.

He was upset that I kept telling him to use his fork during eating. He still prefers to hand feed himself, but I want him to utilize his utensils now that he’s older. That means breaking a habit.

Joe got to his level and spoke sternly not to yell at me and to go sit back down and use his fork. He did. He was upset but didn’t yell at me again.

Does anyone else have kids who test one parent more than the other?

I’m sure it’s because I’m with the kids a lot during the day, they just know how to test me. When it comes to their dad, he’s the fun one until they hear his stern voice. Then they shape right up – most of the time.

During all of this, Lucina was bawling her eyes out. She could not handle the “fighting.” I put fighting in quotations because thats what she saw in her eyes.

In reality, it was just AJ being disciplined to go sit back down and apologize. She hates anyone arguing and wants love and rainbows.

I told her it was okay, brother just had to get a talking because he yelled at moms face, which is not acceptable.

We made AJ stay at the table and finish up eating with his fork, ignoring all the whimpering. If we didn’t, he would have associated yelling at me with getting away with an activity.

I totally cried that day thinking I was failing him. I of course came around to the fact that he’s growing up and testing boundaries is normal. Frustrating but normal.

The rest of the week flew by and had some challenges but for the most part was chill.

FISH

Let’s talk about these fish.

If you saw my video on Monday, you already know about the fish tank catastrophe. If you missed it, it’s on the Facebook page still. Long story short, we went from 11 fish to 3 now!

It was four when I made the video but another one died today.

The filter Joe bought was too strong and literally sucked a fish and spread its decaying toxins through the tank.

It took all day Sunday to fix the water levels. I’m assuming it was just too much exposure, so the fish kept dying after being switched to clean water.

AJ is really into his fish tank and checks it everyday. I’m just happy he hasn’t freaked out about there being less fish inside.

I am going to the pet store tomorrow while both kids are in class and getting new fish.

Failing?

With the fish dying, AJ going through more mood swings, and Lucina hitting me with that “NO!” All day long, I can only feel like I am failing sometimes.

I’m trying to be better about letting things slide but my mind always wonders what I can do to grow as a better mom and person.

I can’t be the mom who lets pets die and kids talk back 🥴.

If you are struggling at this adulting stuff some days, I’m right there with ya!

I shall let y’all know what type of fish I get tomorrow. Hopefully I can find some pretty ones who are also “durable” 😅.

Until next blog ❤